The debate about trans identities and gender dysphoria has become very polarised, even for those of us who have lived through it. My response was mixed when the Government said it wouldn't go ahead with a bill to ban conversion therapy for trans people. I was prescribed testosterone by a private GP at 18 so I could live as a man. The GP did not attempt to explore the causes of my gender dysphoria, such as my mental health problems or my difficulties fitting in socially. I might have insisted on going ahead even if they had not. Nobody could tell me what to do. I was raised in a very masculine environment. My dad looked after me when my mum worked. I have two stepbrothers who are eight years older. We did socialize as I was growing up. I spent a lot of time with my dad after my parents divorced. I had trouble making friends with other girls when I started school. I just wanted to play football and I didn't care for any of the other dolls. There were a lot of rules for female friends. It was easy to fall out, to fight, and to forget about it the next day. It was difficult at high school. I became convinced that I was meant to be a boy when I was about 11. My male friends were all different to me, and that made me feel like I didn't have what they had. Some people who are supposed to be male are actually female. This is the answer, I thought. There was no other reason why I might not get along with women. I began to feel attracted to girls, but later realized I was bisexual. I developed depression when I was 12. The counsellor used words such as borderline,bipolar and manic. My parents didn't know what to do and the school didn't support them. My boyfriend, who I met in high school and is also bisexual, gave me the most support. I was sexually abused by a stranger when I was 14 after being groomed online. My parents reported it to the police. The person was sent to prison after being tried. It was a very traumatic time. I changed my pronouns to he/she when I started experimenting with my gender presentation. The concept of transitioning was too frightening and I thought I was gender-fluid. At this point, I was 13 or 14. Some days I wanted to be feminine and other days I wanted to be masculine. In my final year at school, I told my boyfriend that I needed to pick a side. On some days, I would say my pronouns are "he/him" and "she/her", and on other days, I would say my pronouns are "she/her" I decided I was going to be normal for the next two years after I swallowed my dysphoria, because I wanted to be as feminine as possible. I decided to go ahead with this transition when I was 18. Transition will be the answer to all your problems, that's the big narrative being pushed. My boyfriend was very supportive when I told him that I was having an affair. I saved money from my gap year job to pay for private gender therapy because of the long waiting time for hormones in the National Health Service. I never had a face-to-face consultation, but I did get a 30-minute phone consultation from Gender GP, an online health and wellbeing clinic for trans people. I was prescribed hormones in June. There was no discussion of my sexual trauma and how it could have affected my life. The question about fertility risks was included in the consultation. I knew I needed to say no in order to be prescribed hormones. They didn't tell me about the potential side effects, such as heart problems and loss of bone density, or the extent to which it could impact fertility. If you say you are trans, the online gender clinic, Gender GP, will start from a position of belief. Our job is not to try and prove that you are trans. Our job is to help you make the best decisions. I was over the moon for the first year. I changed my name to Ryan. It took about three months to see the changes. I was happy that my periods stopped. I liked going out and being read as male, and was happy to no longer attract attention from men. My relationship with my boyfriend was pretty much the same, though we did sometimes get asked questions about how we had sex. I no longer had the up-and-down emotions that girls tend to have as a result of a hormonal cycle. All of my friends accepted me. As an adult, my dad said that I could do what I wanted. I had saved up enough money to pay for a double mastectomy, but I decided it would be better to travel or buy a house. I am glad I didn't go ahead. I went through a bad mental health episode during my first term at the University of Lancaster, where I was studying psychology. I was referred to a social worker after attempting suicide. I told him that I had always felt like an outsider and that he suggested I might have a neurological condition. After being referred to specialists, my diagnosis was confirmed. I was able to see the full picture because of the pieces coming together. I came off testosterone about six months later. I was told by the online clinic that I shouldn't come off it completely because of my gender dysphoria. When my periods came back, I decided to stop doing this. I didn't speak to any other medical professionals and didn't have any more contact with the clinic, except to cancel my monthly subscription fee. Although I was happy passing as a male, I was not completely comfortable. I was worried about my appearance. I felt like I was lying to myself and others. Fertility was a factor. I decided to self-sterilise when I turned 20 because I realized I really wanted a family. I was embarrassed about detransitioning, but my friends and colleagues were very supportive and my dad had a lot of questions. I missed the emotional stability I had on testosterone. I hated getting my periods back because my menstrual cycle has been a mess since I transitioned, and I am now being investigated for polycystic ovary syndrome. I should be able to have a baby after my periods have returned. I still need to shave a lot because of the amount of body hair I have left. My voice is not as shallow as it used to be. It is great to be able to dress up again. The good thing about dating a bi dude is they don't care either way. The main advice I would give to others with gender dysphoria is to wait until you are 21 before starting hormones. Before you change your body, let it be an adult woman's body. Detransitioner stories, such as those of the two actresses, can be heard. If you think you have a history of abuse, think about how it might have affected you. I feel a lot better now that I'm 22. I dropped out of my university course to study criminology at a different university. It has been nice that I now accept my body. I experience some of the same symptoms as before, but they are not as frequent. I look forward to a future in which I can include children. 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