Since the death of an Iranian Kurdish woman in police custody in Tehran a week ago, Pegah has watched the protests in her home country with awe, hope, fear, and a twinge of shame.

The videos of women cutting their hair and burning their hijabs in public have been seen by a 39-year-old woman who did not want to share her last name. Large crowds call for the death of the dictator and she has watched her fellow Iranians risk their lives to confront armed security forces.

I'm very embarrassed of myself for not being there. She said that she wouldn't have the courage to do that.

When she learned that Amini died after being arrested by the morality police for wearing a headscarf, she was shocked. According to authorities, Amini died after she had a heart attack and fell into a coma. Her family and the public didn't like the police account of her death.

The death of Amini brought back the trauma of her encounters with the morality police, who are tasked with enforcing Islamic dress codes and morals. While out with her brother in Tehran, she said she was stopped twice by the morality police because they wanted to know if they were out in public together.

Everyone remembers their negative interactions with the morality police.

Sepideh was arrested in July for not wearing a hijab and appeared on state-run TV pale and bruised to apologize. They said it was a forced confession.

It has been proven that it was too dangerous for her to stay.

I knew that it would come to this, and I left in a sad situation. She predicted the day when they would kill people. I knew it would happen. That's what made me leave.