There is a woman who is quite good at Jack box.

After we talked about the video game, I said I was terrible at it and lost every round. She agreed and we moved on. She stopped herself and looked at her hands as she talked about her friendship with a former costar. She stated that she was not bad at it. My part came out and said that. I have to alert people to it. Who cares, I won a round of Jackbox. Even in a small thing, I want to be honest.

I get that it's odd to say it in the middle of an interview. Being able to tell the truth after a long time is so freeing. McCurdy admits the truth must feel like a necessary victory even if it results in one-upping me about a game I don't like.

My niece watched all of McCurdy's shows in reruns during the Pandemic because I mostly missed her heyday on Nick. McCurdy played the plucky and aggressive Sam Puckett on i Carly and Sam & Cat. Both shows were huge hits for the kids and the young adults, making McCurdy a household name for a specific group of people. A lot of the girls churned out by the children's entertainment industry were similar to her character.

She was guided by her mother, who wanted to make her daughter a famous actor, and so she became a child and teen star on her own. When McCurdy was 2 years old, his mother was diagnosed with cancer. After a long battle with cancer, McCurdy's mother, Deborah, died at the young age of 21. When your personal and professional guiding hand dies after almost two decades with cancer, it's a devastating loss. I'm Glad My Mom died is the title of McCurdy's new memoir. There is an urn full of rosy crinkle confetti in the picture on the cover. It is true that the title is funny. She said that it was something she meant sincerely. I'm really happy. I wouldn't be trapped if she were alive. I wouldn't have been able to make every important decision.

Her book gives you a clear explanation. She wanted to be an actor, but her mother was abusive to her youngest daughter. She wrote that her mother forced her to work long and tiring hours even when she was sick. Her mother kept giving her breast and vaginal exams because she was worried about getting cancer as well. She played a role in the development of an eating disorder. She kept her social life restricted until she was in her 20's. She yelled at her husband in front of her four children and was cruel to the child who wanted to please her.

McCurdy has written a memoir that is cautionary tale for child stars and part of the book is about his mom. In her memoir, McCurdy writes that her life purpose has always been to make her mom happy, and that she was forced into auditioning when she was a child. She told me that she had always thought quitting was bad. That can be a lot of fun. It's the right thing to do. It can be the bravest thing to do.

She did a live solo show about her experiences after starring in Between, which ended after two seasons. The book is an exploration of her childhood and career that she put on in Los Angeles before the Pandemic shut it down.

Being a writer is a lot of rebellion. She said that her mother used to say that writers get fat and dress badly. "'You're going to get a watermelon butt instead of your peach butt'" The book makes a mockery of her mother. McCurdy writes that her mom didn't deserve to be treated that way. My mom emotionally, mentally, and physically abused me in ways that will haunt me the rest of my life.

A young famous person had to give up a lot in order to be famous so early, including a normal dating life, a healthy relationship with her body, and a nurturing relationship with her parents. She was certain that her acting career was over when she stopped. It was not a foregone conclusion that she would return to the public eye.

The book is funny, but more than that, it is the truth and an avenue for McCurdy to return to a hostile public eye. Growing up in the public eye makes it difficult to see yourself. The reality of you is more unseen and unacknowledged due to that. I can accept being seen by other people if I see myself.

She asked to meet at the Huntington Botanical Gardens. In the gardens, you can't hear any traffic, you can't see any billboards, and it's the most non-LA place. The Japanese Garden is a good place to hide. Before her grandpa died, she used to take him here all the time. He cried at the beauty of it. A person who appreciates the peace of things is that person. I asked him how he stayed with grandma for so long. He wants to be in a peaceful environment, and my grandmother was against that. She was sitting on the edge of the gazebo looking at the pond. He said, "You know her." She said that she wanted to be there for the children and that she tried not to fight it. That is great. It was also noble. You could have been there for us if you had left her.

She was trapped between cruel, selfish women and inactive, distant men who could've done something to stop the child abuse. She has three older brothers who are very supportive of her little sister and they lived with her mother's parents. In the book, McCurdy writes that her grandmother called her a bitch and berated her when she was a child. Her daughter was also a control freak. The book contains an email that was sent to McCurdy when she was caught with her boyfriend. She wrote to her daughter that she used to be her perfect little angel, but now she is a little squishy. You are pudgier as well. It's clear you're giving your opinion.

It is difficult not to ask where the other adults in her life were when she was a child. She doesn't have much of a relationship with the man who raised her and the man who wrote about her in her memoir. The male adults in her family are just trying to get along. It's hard to not read her book and wonder why her father didn't intervene when his wife forced her to work while sick or why he didn't notice her being dangerously thin. McCurdy said that her mother had an intense presence. The girl was 4 years old. It's powerful. When she entered the room, you felt it.

McCurdy is trying to be understanding. She said she got how complicated her father's role was in that family. I think the timing of my mom's cancer made a difference in his staying around. I don't have much respect for their approach, even though I try to see it from their point of view.

Her relationship with her mother was so bad that she started to relate to stories about mothers with Munchausen syndrome, like the one in The Act. She said that there is a Munchausen by proxy relationship and that she is related to it. It shouldn't be that way. She was told to work through it, even as a child, even though her mother disliked it. It was a result of exhaustion and stress. She was so sick that she couldn't intervene, but I had her voice in my head. She developed a resistance to the antibiotics she was given. It wasn't a good year.

She looks a lot like she did when she was a child star. She has big blue eyes that show the Japanese Garden's pond. Her eyes are long and she has a cupid in her mouth. She has a small frame and heavy blond hair. She looks blankly in the distance when she is speaking. She is waiting for someone to give directions.

Her mom doesn't come. She will spend the rest of her life trying to process the residual damage after detaching from her mom. The question of whether her mother really loved her has been the most difficult part. She said that she came to terms with who she actually was after grieving the version that she wanted her to be. There was more anger and confusion. My grandpa passed away a few years ago and I realized that grief is normal.

McCurdy believes her mother may have had a mixture of personality disorders. It is the hardest pill to swallow. She said she was living for her. She was living for me, that's what I thought. She thought she was incapable of living for you. It's sad. It's in my chest.

Even if the reality of how her mother treated her makes her miss some parts of her mother, that longing is still present. Her mother had a way of making people believe in themselves. Don't worry about it, stop thinking about it. Don't feel bad. You work harder than everyone else. You are capable of making it happen. She really believed it when she heard the pep talks in their car on the way to or from an auditioning job. She did it every time. Her mother didn't convince her. They were very loving. It worked because they weren't gentle stroke-of-the-arm type of pep talks.

She looks like a child when she imitates her mother. Her frame is getting smaller and her hand is trembling. She has a dim light in her eyes. She looks nervous and doesn't seem confident. She thought she didn't hear her pep talks. Maybe they wouldn't work anymore. When something hurt too close to the bone, she put a hand on her stomach. She stated that she just felt it. She's missing.

You will get some information about working with Dan Schneider and Ariana Grande, but not a lot. There are details about the title of Schneider's book, "The Creator." According to a New York Times story, Schneider and Nickelodeon parted ways after he was shown to be abusive to employees. Schneider didn't respond to our request for comment when he was asked about the charges. She writes that The Creator makes grown men and women cry with his degrading comments. The creator knows how to make people feel worthless. McCurdy did not sign a non-disclosure agreement in order to get a payoff after leaving the network. In her memoir, she writes about her feelings. I was offered three hundred thousand dollars byNickelodeon to not talk about my experience on the show. Is my experience of The Creator's abuse something I can relate to? They ought to have a moral compass.

Most of McCurdy's thoughts about Grande are related to her own anxiety and jealousy of working with another woman who seemed to be getting more from the creator than she was. She writes that she grew up in a house with a mother who cried about not being able to afford rent. A healthy mom who could buy her whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted, was an important part ofAriana's upbringing.

There wasn't much on-set drama among the actors, but they were good friends when they worked together Almost a decade has passed since their show ended.

She can still hear her mother's voice even though she has not seen her in years. She said that she would think that the tree needed watering. She would dislike my shoes. She thinks they're too boyish. She wouldn't like this because it doesn't show off her waist She always wanted me to show off my waist.

Staying small and looking young with having a successful career and being a happy, stable mother were some of the things that McCurdy associated with having a successful career and being a happy, stable mother. She was taught by her mother that starving herself was the key to success and that cutting calories and eating Lean Cuisines was the way to go. It began with an eating disorder and continued with other disorders. She said that she felt like she was incapable of making her own decisions because of the fear. I don't know how to wash my hair It was better to be controllable than to own myself. In her book, McCurdy talks about how she was so sheltered by her mother that she was shocked when she first had sex. She said that it was really disturbing to herself. It was a means of survival. It's just not right.

You know what doesn't help an eating disorder when you're a teenager. It's important to play a character who eats a lot. Her trademark was that she liked food. She said that the irony of that is not lost on her. It was very painful. People would always say, 'Hey, Sam, where's the fried chicken?' or 'How's that ham?' Adding trauma to a pile of trauma was what it was doing.

Her eating disorders weren't just about being thin. She said that bulmia was her form of distraction. It is hard to binge and purge. I have no energy left to think about anything and I just want to sleep. It was easier to face my mom's abuse than it was to face it. When her mother died at the age of 21 she wasn't able to enter therapy until she was 23. For the first time, I felt the ache. She said that she couldn't survive the pain.

McCurdy doesn't think children should act professionally. I hope that parents don't read the book if they decide to put their kids in acting.

The latest season of That Girl Lay Lay was being advertised by the network. The 15-year-old actor and rapper Lay Lay, along with the other children featured on the show, were shown in bus stop advertisements. It is possible that the environment for child actors has changed over time. She said it would be impossible for the cultural temperature to be where it is and there wouldn't be enough attention to the child's well-being. There is a question mark. I hope so. I really hope that's true.

It's hard to not think about all the things she missed out on when she looks at the kids. Even though she has mostly fallen out with the other grown-ups in her life, she still remains close with her brothers and her nieces. She said that she cried when she went to the bathroom after watching her brother's daughter be who she is. That is a funny child. Watching them and their parents has healed me. It's just being around kids who are free. Her mother isn't around to upbraid her family. She said that she was sad. She would have been with my nieces.

McCay is therapized these days. You can see by the way she answers questions that she has put in a lot of work. She wants to be clear and she wants to tell the truth She feels like she has been defined by work she did when she was young. It started my first job when I saw the Facebook posts of my friends. She said that she felt like her life was behind her. I didn't have a lot of hope for my future.

She holds a lot of shame as well. Her career is more important than anything her mother did to her. The work left in her wake is almost a decade removed from the work she did as a child. The content is not good. She wished she had never done it. The financial stability is appreciated by me. I am thankful for the doors that it has opened for me, and the friends that I have made. The content of it makes me feel embarrassed. She doesn't believe the shows she helped make are very good. She was a child at the time the shows were made, so it doesn't matter if they were made for kids or not. The embarrassment piece doesn't go away. Making good work is important to me. What do I do with this? She mostly considers herself a writer now that she is more willing to consider acting again. She is happy to be out of sitcoms. Have you thought about it? She might be a hot but unhappy wife on a pilot. She said she would keep doing sitcoms after soul-suck sitcoms. It's dinner!

She knows she is good at it, so she doesn't think she's a bad actor. I performed a lot in real life. She said that she was able to be more real when she was acting than she could be off camera. I was able to show emotions that I wasn't allowed to show.

You know what it is. She was a Disney adult and worked in the industry for half of her life. I'm aware. I'm aware. She laughed at her own admission that she knew. We could have sat at the hotel. I'm familiar with the good spots. I don't ride a lot, but I like the cool environments that are not busy. My journal is in my possession. I think it is bizarre. A full-blown Disney adult is what I mean. Her mother wouldn't be stressed out if she went to Disney because her grandfather worked there and would always sign the family in. At 30 years old, McCurdy buys embroidered Disney shirts on eBay. I'm just going to run away.

I asked her if she wanted children, and she asked me the same thing. Maybe no, but that could change. It is difficult to think about your own children when your mother only sees you as an extension of herself. Without free will, as a person. If you weren't shown how to raise someone, can you? People think I'm so maternal when I say I'm not. I asked what she was talking about. I told her that healed pain can look like care to other people, even if you have never experienced maternal love, and that it can give you maternal qualities even if you weren't raised by a very maternal person.

She clutched her chest as her eyes grew teary. She cried and had a half smile. It is so powerful. To not let it go to waste. I have looked at all this stuff. I was still near it. I stared at it.