I don't know how much drinking will kill a person.

Chris was in Maine in the early 2000s. He was a sax player in a screamo band called Animal Suit Driveby, which later became The Killing Moon. He was a part of the scene. Chris tends to avoid the word "drink" when we talk about it.

He had a good time for a long time after his time in music.

She had concerns. Before he went out, she would ask him tough questions that were easy to answer. Is it possible that he wouldn't go to a bar after that? Was it possible to limit himself to one drink?

He got sober. It was difficult because of all the obvious reasons and it was also boring.

In your formative adult years, when you are in your 30s, that is all you have done. He says that you have no hobbies and all your friends are party people. Pulling out cold turkey left him with questions: Who am I? What am I doing? What is intriguing to me? What do I care about?

Chris goes birdwatching for three or four hours at a time. His favorite place is near a waste-water treatment plant. Chris likes the solitude of birdwatching. Since he stopped drinking, he considers himself to be an introvert.

The Cornell Lab of Ornithology is considered to be the best avian studies program in the world. The job was six hours west in New York. Chris offered to move to Ithaca with her. She said she was alone.

Chris was diagnosed with a cancer that attacks white blood cells two weeks after he left. He said that Hodgkin's is a great cancer, but it is stage 4.

Chris was jacked with steroids and it made him feel great for a day or two, the perfect opportunity to get outside. No hikes, but little drives to the beach to see some birds. After the steroids wore off, Chris felt like he was dying.

He was stuck in this loop for six months because he wanted to stay alive long enough for the cancer to be removed from his body.

He was texting while he was being treated. They were friends and talked every day.

I don't think there is a time when I don't think of the person who brought me to this hobby.

The nice thing about getting outside and birdwatching is that it reminded him of himself.