One of the most challenging things about mental illness is that it’s so draining. It’s like working two jobs, but unfortunately most people can’t see the second shift (and it certainly isn’t rewarded).
If you’re depressed, every task can feel Herculean. Just getting a shower, a bite of breakfast, and making it to work can be a major victory, especially if you’re lugging around the lead weight of guilt and shame. You might be working twice as hard just to do half as much as you could without depression.
In panic disorder, every trip in the car could require carefully planning your route so you don’t encounter any bridges or tunnels.
If you have social anxiety, you might think ahead to every possible social interaction-and then spend hours reviewing things you said to see if you embarrassed yourself.
When you live with generalized anxiety, every task and decision is filled with worried thoughts of “what-if…,” and your nervous system is constantly in fight-or-flight mode, making you tense, edgy, and distracted.
Speaking of distraction, mental illness is mentally draining, as well. Your ability to remember things and organize your thoughts is often hampered, so you have to work extra hard to keep up at work and at home. Decision making can be extremely difficult.
Psychiatric conditions take a real toll on the body, too. They’re often linked to inflammation, and frequently interfere with sleep. And many conditions prompt a tendency toward a poor diet -like eating a lot of highly processed sweets and excessive alcohol use, which further sap your energy.
Despite these challenges, countless people find ways to keep going as best they can through psychiatric illness. They keep going to work, taking care of their family, connecting with friends as much as possible. It takes all their effort to appear “normal” because so many people don’t seem to understand what they’re going through, even some family members and close friends.
Perhaps you can relate. You soldier on, hiding what’s going on inside, as you see yourself struggling daily with things that seem easy for others, and that used to be easy for you. Yet in the process, the overwhelming demands wear down your limited resources, exhausting your spirit.